When I try to look to the future I can’t see us in a place other
than where the bills are piling up, sex is a chore, and I’ve got baby on the
brain. That is not a bright future. Lately I’ve been praying a lot for peace,
at least as much for peace as for a baby. I think having a baby is one way to
have peace, but I would be happy if I could have peace another way too. I can
have peace living my life child free, if I’m not always waiting for the waiting
to be over and my life as a mom to begin.
So in my praying and seeking started to feel God nudging me
towards a new path. It’s a subtle feeling (I sure wish God would come out and
talk to me like He did Sara and Abraham) but subtle it may be, I feel the nudge
to step on the TTC (trying to conceive) rollercoaster and start down what I
hope will be a peaceful path side by side with God and my husband.
So I sat down with my dear husband to tell him about what I think
God is guiding us to do. At this point I think my husband is mostly along for
the ride for my sake. It’s not that he doesn’t want to have a baby with me, but
he is content to just let it run its course. For him it’s not so much a roller coaster
as a plane ride. There might be some turbulence around the way, but it doesn’t ruffle
his feathers like it does mine.
His request for our change in plans is that I don’t start
preventing right away, which we are in agreement on. I won’t prevent for at
least a few months, but I’m afraid I won’t be truly off the roller coaster until
chances of my period being late due to pregnancy are nearly nonexistent. To save
myself the monthly heartache we may have to stop the whole ride. But I’m
willing to give not trying/not preventing another chance (we did it once, got
pregnant and then I had an early miscarriage.) we talked about adoption, and I told
him I was willing to look at it with an open mind if he wants to do some
research. Adoption is never something I’ve been crazy about, but I’m less
closed off to it than I used to be.
Does
this mean I don’t want a baby? That I won’t be sad anymore? That another person’s
baby news will never again rub me the wrong way? Would I turn away someone who wanted
me to adopt their baby? Of course not, the rollercoaster just needs to stop. What
if this isn’t from God? What if by stopping, or worse, preventing, I am
throwing a wrench in God’s plan for my life? I trust that God can get through
any barrier I throw in His way; if He decides I’m gonna have a baby. Maybe He
will bring a birth mother to me at exactly the right time, and we all know
birth control is not 100% effective. And, God may be nudging me to stop only
temporarily. Whatever the obstacle, God can overcome it if He wants. But whatever
He decides to do or not do, I will trust and praise Him. In the paraphrased words
of Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego, “The God I worship
can save me from a life of stress and misery being childless, but even if He doesn’t,
I will still praise Him and do the right thing.”
“The God we worship can
save us from you and your flaming furnace. But even if he
doesn’t, we still won’t worship your gods and the gold statue you have set up.”
Daniel 3:17-18
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